Prayers
Food Prayer 1
As I get older my food/exercise is crucial to me.
Food Prayer 2
I competed against two people and it really helped me do a better job biking. As exercise is part of my spirituality, that competition helped my spiritual life.
Food Prayer 3
I am willing to start all my recovery over for this recovery. I leave 38 years of work behind and, just for today, I will do whatever I have to do, feel whatever I have to feel, to stay on my food plan.
Food Prayer 4
AA is talk therapy.
I need something different.
I need my body to do my talking. “Just look at your body and look at my body…who should we be listening to?”
Food Prayer 5
I have utterly hit bottom with coffee (I relapsed for two months on my 30th AA birthday).
I am weak, petty, small-minded, nauseous, dry-skinned and…soulless. I absolutely cannot reach my soul while using coffee.
It utterly stops my Enlightenment…even with chastity and a strict raw organic vegan living food plan.
Food Prayer 6
I am obscured from my soul, if I am off my food plan. To be content I must reach my soul. I count my breaths and focus within.
Food Prayer 7
Help me to realize that if my food is not tasty, sexy, cool, fun or celebratory
…that I will look for those things in life.
Help me to look for sexy, cool, fun and celebratory…in life!
Food Prayer 8
HP,
Help me not be stupid.
Help me, specifically, not to be stupid around food.
If I am eating foods that:
Hurt me
Make me look bad
Cause me to lose sleep
Prevent me from exercising
Lower my self-esteem
Impact my love life
…is that stupid?
Food Prayer 9
Complete withdrawal from the caffeine in green tea and adjustment to the new food plan took about ten days. Now maintenance…through meditation on my soul.
Nothing so completely insures separation from my soul…as masturbation or overeating.
Food Prayer 10
HP,
The most important thing to me today, just for today, is my new spirituality which is defined as following a food plan and exercising.
Food Prayer 11
A Food Plan that includes caffeine, in any form, is unmanageable by day three.
Food Prayer 12
How do I know if I am acting out with food if my weight is fluctuating only three to five pounds?
After I eat:
Do I feel high?
Do I feel numb?
Do I feel guilty?
Do I feel ashamed?
Do I feel depressed?
Do I feel torpid?
Do I feel like I have ‘gotten away’ with something?
Do I feel like “I have finally gotten my own way” around my food plan?
Do I feel like I need to “Go exercise it off”
The next day, do I feel pitifully and incomprehensibly demoralized?
Food Prayers 13
What constitutes food abstinence for me today?
Not gaining more than three pounds, and if I do immediately losing it.
Never eating flour and sugar, ever.
Weighing and measuring my food.
Always making a food record.
There are also finite periods when I do not eat out…I am definitely in one of those right now.
There are finite periods where I make a food plan and follow it…I am definitely in one of those right now.
Being grateful always…
Food Prayer 14
“A fat stomach never breeds fine thoughts”
It also separates me from my soul.
In that sense it moves toward a form of death.
Spiritual death…
Food Prayers 15
In the state of California 16% of our 2-4 year olds are obese…Really? Those are our babies!!
Martin Luther King use to say “Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.”
Gandhi would say “Be the change you want to see in the world”.
Just do it…One meal,one day at a time.
Food Prayer 16
If it is boring…just do it.
Weigh my food
Stick with Food Plan
Eat at set times.
Fast 18 hours per day
Food Prayer 17
Help me to be merciful and forgiving as I re-write my food plan:
Wheatgrass
Sprouts
Greens
Nut butters
Nuts
Bananas
No flour or sugar
No meat, dairy or eggs
Organic foods only
No cooked foods
No salt
No carbonated drinks
No aspirin (that had become a food group)
Food Prayer 18
If you live a life of prayer and fasting…you never have to go to a meeting again, if you don’t want to. You can retire as an apostolic. You can live a humble simple life as a guitar teacher and marry Alona. You have devoted 30 years of your life to this and you have invented a cure for sex addiction. You have healed yourself. Now you can just teach guitar, read books and workout.
Food Prayer 19
Not more meetings, just PrayerCall.
Thin, athletic, well-dressed, reading…That is the new me, in my new life.
Food Prayer 20
When I am abstinent my:
face looks better
torso looks better
heart pain diminishes 85%.
dizziness disappears
arthritis diminishes 80%
desire to be sexual improves
tailored shirts fit
pants are looser
belt is looser
When I am abstinent I:
can get up in the morning much more easily
want to work
want to save money
want to invest
read more books
think about playing the guitar again
want to be in public with my partner…looking’ thin
Food Prayer 21
When I am not abstinent my:
face looks old, sickly and pallid
breath is taxed because of the pressure on my lungs
feet and calves feel and look big and bulgey
eyes lose their steadfastness
mind is dense, thick, blurry and wandering
new shirts bulge
When I am not abstinent I:
just want to sleep
feel emotionally hopeless
lose interest in any activities
don’t want to work out
lose the cut and curve of my abs
fear being naked
have dreams of being chased…(that’s weird)
And finally….looking in the mirror in the morning is quite painful
Food addiction is a thought disorder.
The proof that the thought disorder was healed would be the presence of peace of mind…combined with thinness.
Food Prayer 22
Getting old is cool, if you do it right
Things that make you age faster:
Caffeine
Tobacco
Alcohol
Drugs
Meat
Dairy
Flour
Sugar
Foods that are neutral: Nuts and fruits
Foods that make you youthful: Wheatgrass
Sunflower sprouts
Food Prayer 23
Spiritual Inventory:
AA’s express belief is that we drink because we can’t live life on life’s terms.
It is also their belief that, once recovered, demarcated by the Step Nine Promises, I must do three things to recover:
1.brief daily inventory
2.daily prayer/meditation
3.serve others
Or in AA shorthand I have to live the Maintenance Steps 10 through 12. It is AA belief that living this way prevents the return of craving.
Food Prayer 24
Sobriety without food abstinence does not feel sober, to me.
Here’s how food abstinence feels:
“Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor.
Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace.
She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her; those who hold her fast will be blessed.”
Food Prayer 25
Small numbers:
In Debtors Anonymous there is an expression “ God is in the numbers “.
When I am at at 132.8 I find that there are three pounds, headed down to 129.8, where my mental acuity radically improves, I need less sleep, my memory improves, my interest in art awakens, my writing output dramatically increases and my virility is off the charts.
If it is to be…it’s up to me.
Food Prayer 26
“What if it were God’s will to be beautiful?”
I don’t mean Tom Cruise or Helen of Troy type beauty. That is genetic celebrity.
I mean the beauty that exudes from someone who treasures their body through food and exercise.
There is a beauty that appears from that type of self-love that appears in no other way.
And if “Taking care of myself through enlightened self-interest” is God’s will, then it is the beauty of God that is shining through me.
Don’t tell L’Oréal that…before you short the stock
Food Prayer 27
Spirituality is defined from within. Spirituality, for me, without sacrifice…means nothing.
I define my spirituality as the appropriate relationship between food and exercise
Nothing is more important than my food…nothing.
Food Prayer 28
The four most spiritually gifted people I have ever known were lost to food…
Food Prayer 29
If I have a thought disorder that keeps me from being thin,
I can help solve that today through being positive, prayer and reading books.
Food Prayer 30
My basic food abstinence definition came not from some abstruse book, but rather from my first mother-in-law:
“When I gain three pounds…I just stop eating so much”.
Food Prayer 31
Bill W. claimed that coffee and cigarettes were not bad for him (p. 135 Big Book). But…he died from Emphysema.
Food Prayer 32
“Nothing so completely insures severance from my connection with my Higher Self…as an energy drink”
Food Prayer 33
”Enlightened self-interest” : A perfect Food Plan is simply not enough to be healthy…I must work out.
Food Prayer 34
I feel fevered, heart-burned, raw-dry skin, bloated, acrid smelling, extreme, reddened, tender, victimy, overwhelmed and dread…while on coffee…and it is a binge food.